insight

...It’s true the way I feel
Was promised by your face
The sound of your voice
Painted on my memories
Even if you’re not with me
I’m with you
You
Now I see keeping everything inside
You
Now I see
Even when I close my eyes...

the 3rd day

Easters_2008- by far the best and most enjoyable easter that I've experienced so far. It's awesome just how well my parents get along with my lilbro's family. I only really see my mom and dad like 2 to 3 times a year but each time I see them it seems that they both are more and more ridiculously ghetto than before- and that's just one of the many reasons why I love them so much.

PROS-
-SeaWorld with my adpotive familia (the LeRays)
-Eating!
-realizing just how undeservingly and abundantly blessed I am...

PURGE

it's the last lap of a race that always seems to be the toughest; there have been times where I just wanted to quit; fall over and not get up...but you gotta keep the faith, the hope, and the LOVE.

"Don’t you realize that in a race everyone runs, but only one person gets the prize? So run to win! All athletes are disciplined in their training. They do it to win a prize that will fade away, but we do it for an eternal prize" ~1COR9:24-25

*Give until there's nothing left*

PROS-
-Rock service and Miles talking about the #3
-altar call
-buffet!

gangsta's paradise

sapped of my energy.
feeling poop tired.
I need You to keep going.
endure, trust.
May I keep going and keep working...even if it kills me.
Break me down- for this is what I asked for.

All will fall away- what will remain?
Truth
and that is all

PROS-
-shopping
-shakes
-Easter Sunday with the parents

Praying for you

Well today has been full of breaking down yet being put back together.
After handing over about 316 bones to a mechanic, my car has been restored to operational status. I love you, Chacho.
Then came some intense breaking; I saw not with my own eyes and witnessed the hurt and pain and suffering. I was compelled by a higher authority and overwhelming felt the power of the Spirit that knocked me off of my feet.

I love you and you are all in my heart

*And so starts the sacrifice and the emptiness of self in order to become overflowing with that which comes from above...Love.

waiting

Soon it'll be over. May God's will be done.
Regardless of the outcome; let us all move along in love.
Funny how God answers and acts so quickly- sacrifice and loss; its pruning time.
Lose the dead weight and allow the holiness to shine!

...God Bless you all

down but not dead

down: describes the operational status of my G20 automobile. Hope that it'll be back to shape without breaking the bank or getting towed for parking reasons.

not dead: an alive passion of my spirit. I'm over all the selfishness and the excuses. Get your eyes off of your req'd sacrifice and look at the bigger picture; don't divide and conquer or spread your selfish attitude to other younger brothers. UNITY for CHRIST. see outward spiritually not inward selfishly. Get your attitude and heart right with Christ.

Do what you want- just don't bring down the house with you.

"Pray without ceasing"!
~1Thess 5:17


May His will be done.

whatever

I spoke. But I feel that I could have done better... I did all I could. The message doesn't change, only the way that it's packaged.

Let's live it out, shall we?

hole in the wall

After a year and a half of being a SDSU student- I have finally seen the beauty and blessing of Trujillos. Aside from being an awesome hole in the wall Mexican place- it's a place marked with intense share time experiences with some awesome bros, awesome grub, and ghetto brown people that are somehow all related to each other. It's an added bonus that I don't have violent diarrhea shortly after each visit...I dig it and thank God for it.

PROS-
-Chops
-Reed
-getting prepared for next Wednesday night
-...and so much more

no strings on me

Guy Retreat- spring 2008. Definitely unlike any of the past semesters. Being in the quiet empty desert was definitely an awesome and peaceful experience. Getting lost is actually fun- when you have a divine and almighty guide to get you back safely.
So I have a new lil'bro and have kinda figured that God has destined my family to be brown...funny how it's happened; but I'm not complaining.
+hope to post some visuals of the highlights.

PROS-
- rad talks with Burton
- my chacho
- my hermanito
- digging
- being brown and proud

*prayhardprayharderprayhardprayharderprayhard...liveharder*

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