Patience. For some reason I am struggling with being patient and at peace. When you find something so great, so awesome, so appealing, and so desirable- it is a great challenge to hold back or to simply wait for the time to pass by for the great that you hope to come.
I am constantly reminded from deep inside that peace and patience are part are gained when you talk things out- open up what's going on in the inside and vent. Naturally we do this to another friend or person of trust or who is simply willing to listen. But as is the fact of life- we are not perfect and can't fill what only God can; We can not comfort, love, strengthen, encourage, enlighten, (and so on)- the way that only God can.
Coming to this realization- one word strikes me right between the eyes and into my mind and soul.
PRAY.
The one true God who always:
sees you,
thinks of you,
hears you,
wants to speak to you,
wants to simply be with you...He is the one that will pull us through all things that we will face.
Why do we take this perfect divine relationship for granted SO EASILY?
Why do we look to the brokenness around us for what only our Maker can give?
Free will- it truly is a burden.
I look forward to what is to come with no regrets of the past;
I hope that I may seek to always be close with The One who seeks always to be closer with me
...It's all about Love.
12/20/08
12/18/08
pressure
Done. All that is left is to print out my final research paper. Turn it in. Done.
Pray is all I can do now. I am not really worried about much though cuz' I know that I did and and doing what I need to be doing. Let me state that differently- I think I'm doing what I need to be doing; though I know I could do better.
We are not perfect.
All of us we break, fail, mess up, hurt others, break trust, become selfish, etc...
It's interesting how we can not truly protect someone from the reality of things...It's not our role to protect and guard others. No. We can only do so much help each other stay strong, encouraged, focused, faithful, obedient. However, pain, suffering, persecution, and hate are all inevitable in this life. Seriously- there will always be someone or something that hates all that you do and/or hates all that you are. whether you are seeking the eternal and spritual or not...there will always be haters.
In that case, how can you not put your trust and perspective in that which is beyond our natural flesh existence and that is above this dirt place?...but that's another issue.
We are all going to be hated and will suffer regardless of what we put our hearts and minds to.
But as a fellow brother or sister, to truly love is to point someone to where they need to be going towards; to point them towards where the creator of all, God Almighty, is calling them.
You can't hold onto anything that God wants to pull you away from. His path is far more reliable than your own; even if so don't think so. Our way is really just a means to an end that takes us no where.
This scripture resounds in my head and I looked it up-
"There is a way that seems right to a man,
but in the end it leads to DEATH."
~Proverbs14:12 (NIV)
is this path or way that you're on leading to death? to utter dead end?
Christ's words:
"Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it.
But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to LIFE, and only a few find it."
~Matthew7:13-14 (NIV)
Death will come to us all. What path or gate will you choose?
Seek and stay on the narrow road and gain life that surpasses the death comes to all.
...I don't know why I am still up and awake. I learned something from this too.
I wait and pray and hope that this is all in control by God and not by my own desires.
PrayLoveLive- its tough. I want to be closer but I can't control distance. Soon I hope to make it all clear and communicated. I am interested- but I have to wait. Keep it clear since we can't be near...Here we go.
Pray is all I can do now. I am not really worried about much though cuz' I know that I did and and doing what I need to be doing. Let me state that differently- I think I'm doing what I need to be doing; though I know I could do better.
We are not perfect.
All of us we break, fail, mess up, hurt others, break trust, become selfish, etc...
It's interesting how we can not truly protect someone from the reality of things...It's not our role to protect and guard others. No. We can only do so much help each other stay strong, encouraged, focused, faithful, obedient. However, pain, suffering, persecution, and hate are all inevitable in this life. Seriously- there will always be someone or something that hates all that you do and/or hates all that you are. whether you are seeking the eternal and spritual or not...there will always be haters.
In that case, how can you not put your trust and perspective in that which is beyond our natural flesh existence and that is above this dirt place?...but that's another issue.
We are all going to be hated and will suffer regardless of what we put our hearts and minds to.
But as a fellow brother or sister, to truly love is to point someone to where they need to be going towards; to point them towards where the creator of all, God Almighty, is calling them.
You can't hold onto anything that God wants to pull you away from. His path is far more reliable than your own; even if so don't think so. Our way is really just a means to an end that takes us no where.
This scripture resounds in my head and I looked it up-
"There is a way that seems right to a man,
but in the end it leads to DEATH."
~Proverbs14:12 (NIV)
is this path or way that you're on leading to death? to utter dead end?
Christ's words:
"Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it.
But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to LIFE, and only a few find it."
~Matthew7:13-14 (NIV)
Death will come to us all. What path or gate will you choose?
Seek and stay on the narrow road and gain life that surpasses the death comes to all.
...I don't know why I am still up and awake. I learned something from this too.
I wait and pray and hope that this is all in control by God and not by my own desires.
PrayLoveLive- its tough. I want to be closer but I can't control distance. Soon I hope to make it all clear and communicated. I am interested- but I have to wait. Keep it clear since we can't be near...Here we go.
12/15/08
special peeps
This past week is tough to describe adequately for what it truly was...It was full of being with friends and meeting new people who treated me like family- like as if I was a distant cousin or something but without the awkwardness of it.
Banquet of Fall2008- definitely one that will stand out amongst the ones in the past; and it wasn't the location, the food, the video, the gifts (though I loved the shot glasses regardless of what some people may have commented), or even the after party stuff that made this banquet so special. What made it all special and memorable was the time I shared with the people that I was with. Seriously, being with guys that are more than brothers to me and with friends that I was able to share the experience was what it was all about.
Then going up to the IE for the weekend and get love and hospitality from people that I met at the Rock Church was awesome. I'm being reminded that this life is all about touching the lives and hearts of other people.
*my big bro and his family, Christina and the Juarez/Adame family, all the people at the Rock youth ministry, and everyone else that I cross paths with this weekend- God Bless you all.
I am excited for what is in the works. God is mysterious indeed; but He provides all that you need. Why worry? why fear?...FAITH!
Without Him, our creator, maker, father, King of Kings, and above Everything- we are all empty and can do nothing. I seek to be full of Him. Empty of all else.
Thank YOU for all that you do, for caring, and for loving without any expectations...that's God shining through you.
"Overcome the world with Love"~SG
Banquet of Fall2008- definitely one that will stand out amongst the ones in the past; and it wasn't the location, the food, the video, the gifts (though I loved the shot glasses regardless of what some people may have commented), or even the after party stuff that made this banquet so special. What made it all special and memorable was the time I shared with the people that I was with. Seriously, being with guys that are more than brothers to me and with friends that I was able to share the experience was what it was all about.
Then going up to the IE for the weekend and get love and hospitality from people that I met at the Rock Church was awesome. I'm being reminded that this life is all about touching the lives and hearts of other people.
*my big bro and his family, Christina and the Juarez/Adame family, all the people at the Rock youth ministry, and everyone else that I cross paths with this weekend- God Bless you all.
I am excited for what is in the works. God is mysterious indeed; but He provides all that you need. Why worry? why fear?...FAITH!
Without Him, our creator, maker, father, King of Kings, and above Everything- we are all empty and can do nothing. I seek to be full of Him. Empty of all else.
Thank YOU for all that you do, for caring, and for loving without any expectations...that's God shining through you.
"Overcome the world with Love"~SG
12/10/08
SMYRNA
I don't know what it is but I feel like this week has been long. Chops put me in check when he told me that it was only Tuesday after I was saying how I was glad that the week was almost done- lol.
It was an interesting day actually. I saw two movies today in two of my classes now that I think about it. Both of which I recommend everyone, plus their mother, to go and see them!
1st- Motorcycle Diaries;
a good movie about Che Guevarra's travels before becoming the revolutionary that made him a legend. I saw it before going to South America, and seeing it again after being there for six months- big difference. Seriously, I felt like a such a softy when I started tearing up when they showed the poor, sick, and oppressed people of countries like Peru and Bolivia...it hit the heart cuz that's what I say and lived with first hand while there...if anything it helped me understand the things that break and touch my heart.
2nd- There Will Be Blood;
now this movie seriously got me convicted and made me spiritually uneasy. Good movie- yes. However it made me realize that how weak the church can be when it is not Faithful or committed to the Truth...after seeing that movie, I literally had to go on a prayer walk and vent off all the spiritual attacks that were in this film.
Watch the movie and I hope you'll be convicted to not be a weak lukewarm 'christian' that bends from the truth in the face of persecution.
REVELATION2:8-11; take to heart the message to the church of Smyrna...
'Be Faithful unto DEATH'- burn this into the hearts of every believer who seeks you as savior. Let it ring continually in our ears and minds.
'Be Faithful unto Death'
God Bless you
It was an interesting day actually. I saw two movies today in two of my classes now that I think about it. Both of which I recommend everyone, plus their mother, to go and see them!
1st- Motorcycle Diaries;
a good movie about Che Guevarra's travels before becoming the revolutionary that made him a legend. I saw it before going to South America, and seeing it again after being there for six months- big difference. Seriously, I felt like a such a softy when I started tearing up when they showed the poor, sick, and oppressed people of countries like Peru and Bolivia...it hit the heart cuz that's what I say and lived with first hand while there...if anything it helped me understand the things that break and touch my heart.
2nd- There Will Be Blood;
now this movie seriously got me convicted and made me spiritually uneasy. Good movie- yes. However it made me realize that how weak the church can be when it is not Faithful or committed to the Truth...after seeing that movie, I literally had to go on a prayer walk and vent off all the spiritual attacks that were in this film.
Watch the movie and I hope you'll be convicted to not be a weak lukewarm 'christian' that bends from the truth in the face of persecution.
REVELATION2:8-11; take to heart the message to the church of Smyrna...
'Be Faithful unto DEATH'- burn this into the hearts of every believer who seeks you as savior. Let it ring continually in our ears and minds.
'Be Faithful unto Death'
God Bless you
12/5/08
surfacing
A change in course. In my head, I had my bags already packed and in hand thinking that I knew exactly where I was going, thinking I already knew what I was going to be doing, thinking that I already knew who I was to serve.
But the poop hit the fan and took me off guard. I was knocked senseless off of my high horse of control and certainty.
HUMBLED.
But sooner than later, I gained understanding. I know see that I being taken to greater things. I'm being pushed off my usual treading ground and am being called to seek out a new area to do work
...I see the light; the audible command to speak, to teach, to build up.
I'm being taken places that I haven't been before. I'll be on the frontline with those who know not the truth. I'll be speaking to those in need of the Fire that burns deep and blazes the path to a life that is not of this world...FTW.
Do it up son.
*Redline energy drink-> bottle o'crack
But the poop hit the fan and took me off guard. I was knocked senseless off of my high horse of control and certainty.
HUMBLED.
But sooner than later, I gained understanding. I know see that I being taken to greater things. I'm being pushed off my usual treading ground and am being called to seek out a new area to do work
...I see the light; the audible command to speak, to teach, to build up.
I'm being taken places that I haven't been before. I'll be on the frontline with those who know not the truth. I'll be speaking to those in need of the Fire that burns deep and blazes the path to a life that is not of this world...FTW.
Do it up son.
*Redline energy drink-> bottle o'crack
12/4/08
Fire
May I take time each and every day that I live to stop
To stop and be still
To lift up my eyes, my sight
To the place from where hope and love rain down from
And may my heart and soul proclaim to my
Maker, Creator, and Almighty King:
'Give me the Fire.
Give me the Fire...TO BURN AGAIN'
Let the fire come down and burn within every heart that beats
And within every spirit needing what is true amongst the flood of lies
Rise up
Open your Eyes
Open your HEART
BURN for the glory of the King of Kings, the Lord of Lords
To stop and be still
To lift up my eyes, my sight
To the place from where hope and love rain down from
And may my heart and soul proclaim to my
Maker, Creator, and Almighty King:
'Give me the Fire.
Give me the Fire...TO BURN AGAIN'
Let the fire come down and burn within every heart that beats
And within every spirit needing what is true amongst the flood of lies
Rise up
Open your Eyes
Open your HEART
BURN for the glory of the King of Kings, the Lord of Lords
12/2/08
DGR
SuaVe248E
-DINK253E
--DARKO256E
--FIFA276E
What you see above is my family line. It has been established- to keep a family line tight and close and to strengthen the pride and bonds and brothers:
We are proclaiming ourselves and future descendants as the
Dirty Ghetto Reds of the Matador family.
DGR- its what we are.
-DINK253E
--DARKO256E
--FIFA276E
What you see above is my family line. It has been established- to keep a family line tight and close and to strengthen the pride and bonds and brothers:
We are proclaiming ourselves and future descendants as the
Dirty Ghetto Reds of the Matador family.
DGR- its what we are.
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