It was this Coldplay song that simply spoke to me lately especially when choosing it as the song for the graduating senior section of the AGO Banquet video... I have realized that looking forward beyond this semester, the summer, this year- I really have no idea of what or where God will place me...I've realized that it's not my worry or concern to try to figure all that out. Rather, looking at how God has worked in my life in order to bring me to the place I am now, it is clear that we will never quite know the big master plan. I can say or convince myself that I am being called to live as a missionary in South America or that I want to enroll in seminary and seek to be a pastor- but honestly, what the heck do I know? God knows it all and His ways are mysterious.Thinking that things need to be a certain way, whether its being in a relationship with a certain girl, living in a certain country, or having a certain job title- I have found that it all isn't up to me to figure those things out or to try to make them happen.
Thinking that way has led me down paths of pain, disappointment, anger, frustration.
Know your role before the ALMIGHTY.
I now know that God grants me vision and that I need to seek it out. But in the details, my only expectation is for God to take care of it all. I can't put any expectation before that.
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there. With open arms and open eyes. - Incubus
I thank God for being able to smile when I think about life. When I think about those special people in my life and the memories made. No matter how bad it was or how ridiculously blessed it was, in the end, God put a smile upon my face. He has and I know that He will keep doing so as long as I stay faith-full.
PROS
-typing a lengthy letter in spanish via email to my family updating them about life and God in my life.
-learning to not worry about myself- that I am blessed though I deserve less than nothing.
-realizing the need for more deep prayer.
-knowing that my brother is back home safe and that soon I hope to have the deep talk about 'holy things' (Nacho Libre voice)
-wanting to be down for whatever God wants me to be down for
-knowing that this place is not my home...
P E A C E
3 comments:
haha. tan pronto como abrió su página i i se ríe. tus fotos trajo una sonrisa a mi cara. es perfectamente multa no saber que Dios nos está llevando. Soy como la realización de más y más que no me corresponde a mí. vamos a la escuela de pensamiento que va a definir lo que somos para ser,
pero nada de eso importa. usted podría ir a América del Sur o podría ir a la Florida. en el momento en que parece espontáneo, pero Dios
nuestras vidas se ha trazado y piezas de rompecabezas que se están recogidos y volvió a mostrar lo que nos queda por delante. para mí no me importa en torno a lo que viene .... i estará listo, dispuesto y capaz, él es simplemente director de mi historia de vida.
p.s. sonriente es contagiosa!
does this translate? i tried.
yea... took me forever to make sure it was right and made sense, had to look up a lot. it's speaking that's more difficult. like i said. i only know a poem and an entire skit by heart. & that sounds legit. but stray away from that and nope. nada.
DINK... im excitted for you & i expect many great praises from you in the near future about your summer in costa rica and life outside of sdsu.
your heart is ready to take direction, it is malleable; do not doubt where He is leading it. trust that the passions hes given you to study the bible and speak truth are passions you did not conjure yourself. be encouraged that your call to pastoring is noticed and acknowledged by your peers and that these same peers will, out of love and inspiration, hold you accountable.
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